Day 4 on My Journey

I decided instead if making Facebook posts about my weightloss journey, I'd put it in my blog. So here it is!!

It all started as a vague plan that became very important when one day I saw the side view of me in my yellow sweater, and saw how much weight I'd put on. Not just a, "Oh, it's just water weight!" but, "This is unhealthy, you need to make changes before you end up with diabetes!!" 

Now, before I continue it's very important to me that you all know I'm not trying to "fat shame" anyone, or make anyone feel any type of way about their weight. Diabetes is a scary disease that runs in my family, and I don't want it. I have no delusions that I'll ever be what I was in my early 20's. I was unhappy while I was thin then, and I'll be unhappy thin now if I don't keep working on my insides as well as my outsides.

My current weight is 222.8lbs. I'm 5'2", i wear a size 22 pants, I'm a 42DD, and those are the only measurements I know at the moment. I'm going to get my mom to measure me one of these days so I can keep an eye on that too. They say that my weight should be 115lbs, but fuck that. My goal weight is 135lbs instead. 

My other goals are to limit my carb intake, drink 80oz of water daily, do 30min of something active, no alcohol until New Years [then only in moderation after that], to start going to a therapist again, and to be able to look at myself in the mirror without feeling like I failed myself. 

Here is my only full body picture ... me taking a picture of my dress for my niece's wedding to send to my mom. 

So follow my journey here if you want, please offer feedback, love, and encouragement, and as Rupaul says, hopefully I "don't fuck it up."