Again [A Poem in Rambles]

Off my meds again
Say it again
Off my meds again
Will I ever be forgiven
For all the things 
I can't say outloud
Prick my finger
Count to ten
And back again

Off my meds again
Its 3am again
Off my meds again
And I can't breathe
And I'm so sorry
And I'm so broken
Prick my finger
Count to ten
And back again

Off my meds again
Break mirrors again
Off my meds again
My skin is heavy
It's so loud
But it's silent
Count to ten
And back again


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