Accidentally Racist Vol2

A few years ago, I fancied myself a YouTuber. A now ex friend and I had a show called Ginger Snacks. It wasn't very good. During that time we made a video that makes me cringe to look back on. It's called "Accidentally Racist," and my point was that sometimes we're accidentally racist, but the whole video is a couple of white girls that are talking from privilege, and make very little effort to educate themselves. I am afraid I was indeed one of these girls, and like I said, it makes me cringe. 

The fact is, I am accidentally racist sometimes. And I'm not proud of it. The more I learn, the more I should strive to learn. I find myself sometimes complacent ... it's easy that way, but it's the path of the cowardly as well as the lazy, and I need to do better. 

Maybe it's not that I'm racist, I'm just comfortable with my ignorance. I'm tired from work and life, but that's no excuse. I read multicultural literature, I support ethnic-owned cosmetics and YouTube channels, but I don't engage in debate with people on Facebook, I'm friends with officers of all races [which lately people treat a problematic so I include it here], I don't champion any causes, even my own, anymore because fighting with people is exhausting and I'm already exhausted. 

The thing about me being exhausted is that since I'm white, what have I to be exhausted about? And it's a big sign of my privilege that I even get to BE too exhausted to fight. Of all the things that I'm going through that cause me trouble, my skin colour is not one of them. 

The fact remains that I think diversity is beautiful, and I'm glad there are all kinds of people in the world. There's so much to learn, and I wish I could just learn it and not have so much to feel guilty over because life isn't the way it ought to be. I wish all men and women were treated equally. 

I love you, and I'm sorry I'm not a better ally, but I'm working on it. 

Here's a picture of my cat.